one last cry

"One Last Cry"
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
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it has been 1 months since the incident, but i keep getting back to square one.

Like the words suggest, i need to give it up, but why crying is always the hardest thing for me to do.
It is so easy to get myself hurt, but why i cannot let it go and moved on.

I need to get up, stop living in this imagery world of my own. i need to be strong. but why cant i.

Living each day with this burden in my head is proven too much for me. i need to seek a help. somewhere, somehow. or else...

and now i start to sounds like a sissy.. i am a man for christ's sake..